So for a while now I’ve been feeling awful. I would say I have been feeling anxious about things and also really sad as well. In all honesty it has begun to scare me just how worried and sad I can feel on days. Especially during this last month I have a lot of sad emotions and it’s all been put on my poor boyfriend who has had to put up with the lack of motivation and the break downs of tears that shake my whole body. As well as the ridiculous worries over everything that I know are silly but I just can’t help it.
I have been trying for a while to figure out why I feel like this, I think it’s things to do with work, friendships, past events and the norm of relationship arguments that are heightened by my emotions at the moment. But I think one main culprit is social media. I scroll when I’m on public transport, I scroll when watching tv, I scroll every morning and every night before bed. I follow so many amazing bloggers and travel bloggers and yes I enjoy seeing everything and it gives me such inspiration and amazement at what can be created and I am so proud and in awe of what people have achieved. But it also makes me think of all the things I long for but feel like I’ll never be able to achieve and places I’ll never travel to. I also wouldn’t say I’m materialistic but seeing people post outfits and things all day everyday I long to own it just to look as good as them and to post with outfits that look amazing and it does fuel your clothing need seeing it all the time (well it does for me anyway)
It’s also so easy to see what people get up to every second and when I spend weekends doing nothing and seeing people out and about and travelling it really gets to me. I know it’s not hard to go out and do things, but sometimes I struggle to think of ideas that both me and my boyfriend can enjoy – that’s a different story. But it’s very easy to be sucked into it all through just swiping all day every day. Recently there was a survey that said that instagram is the main cause of anxiety and depression for those between 14-24 years old and it really made me think, is this why I feel the way I do? Its all so easily accessible and so easy to just post what you want people to see and although I am also aware of that I feel like it’s still tricky for me. I promised myself I’d never be someone who lets it influence me and my emotions but without realising it I feel it really has begun to effect me.
So that’s why I decided that I need to take a step back from social media a lot more. I want to start picking up my phone less and not being fussed about what people are wearing or travelling too or even just getting up to in the day. Of course I want to achieve what others are able to but I know its incredibly hard work. So I decided on Wednesday (this day was picked due to the fact I knew I was going to be busy) to have a complete social media and shopping app free day, I deleted all my social media and shopping apps so I wasn’t tempted and honestly it was quite refreshing. It helped that I had a day full of eating and enjoy time with my best friend and getting content for my blog and instagram. But I didn’t really get the itchy feeling of wanting to scroll and things nor did think about the things I was missing. I was just enjoying being the moment properly spending time with peoples whose company I was in. I think honestly it really benefitted me, I didn’t get the sinking feeling of wanting to be doing and creating what others were I was just focusing on me and what I wanted to take photos of.
I think even if it’s something you enjoy doing, everyone needs to take a break once in a while to regather your thoughts and bring yourself back to the hear and now, even if its for 5-10 minutes. It really does do you the world of good and I think I will try from now on to stop picking my phone up too often and even try to have a social media detox once a week because it’s really healthy.
Have any of you taken days away from everything or have a day every week where you don’t touch it?
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